英語です

Sorry, today I feel like talking in English, so let me type in English.

Since December, I became unemployed,

and I've also been a student since April.

Lots of things has changed in both good way and bad way.

I became more insecure. It's like I need to care about money all the time,

which is quite stressful as I want to make sure that I would be able to live separately from my parents.

I felt that I'm immature compared to the same age people.

I've never encountered many business person as much as my colleague and people who is in office right now.

I feel like left out and feel lonely.

I also feel like I became more annoying person.

Like I totally forget how to talk to people in a good manner, because well we don't socialize lol

I also became more manly.

I used to wait until someone help me, but none of them helps me in a kitchen,

and I do not want to get any help neither.

I want to grew up as a person.

So I mean it was neccessary, but I also feel like I lost some feminity, and that's kind of embarrassing.

Like I dont know when I can ask for help.

But at the same time, I became more cheerful as person.

I became more like myself and I love it.

May be I have more hater now,

but I like what I have pride on.

I became more stable

I became stronger

I start to understand and admit what I don't have and what I can do about it.

I also feel appreciated to know what is good about me.

Wish I could be a better me.